Glad May 29, 2009

I’m glad. Probably it’s more than glad. Things that should end have ended in a reasonable note. Finally, it was back to normal again. I’m not jumping in joy but that postive feeling keep on emerging and it’s hard to describe. I’m smiling again, towards this machine in front of me :]

I’m glad again, that I managed to surpass myself. As I run, somehow I just felt that my body is in its optimum condition that day and the weather was fine which prompted me to run continuously until I cannot take it. Amazingly, I broke my own record (double the limit of previous time) and burning those unwanted calories excites me. There is really a sense of achievement in the air. Maybe it’s something insignificant to some of you, but it means a lot to me. This reminds me about Adidas’ tagline: “Impossible is Nothing”. No doubt, it is true.

Cheers to the past, present and future.

 

Above all, life is still fantastic, bL!nk$t@R.

Perhaps “fever” May 22, 2009

Perhaps everyone is having a “fever” now. A massive one that spreads to the surrounding. I somehow feel cold out of nothing. Occasionally, life is like a fish out of the water grasping for oxygen and hopefully it can find its way back soon. There is definitely at least a point in our lives where our inner feelings will tense up and eventually make us go bananas. When the road starts to get bumpy, we just wish that everything will end immediately. Doesn’t everyone hope so?

It has been 2 weeks by now. Am I allow to ask a question? When can all of us take a break from those things? Yes, we need a break desperately, a break that heals. I know it’s really hard to wear a mask to face this world everyday. I know it’s so painful to go through this particular stop of life. I really know.

I just finish staring at the row of books in front of me. I was wondering, when can everything regain its original position, just like the books in its upright position? I’m using 43 muscles to frown now instead of the 17 muscles to smile, because I wanted to, not because I had to.   

Seriously, you will never know what will happen in life. You will just never know until it arrives. It’s like a land mine. When I’m witnessing each and everything that is occuring now, I’m truly learning. Waking up each day and telling myself this world still carries hope and stepping out of my room and see nothing but God first were already a blessing to me. In fact, I believe that everyone can definitely walk through this.

 

Hope against hope, bL!nk$t@R. 

Be an angel/demon? May 17, 2009

I guess I was a useless jerk. Whenever that particular situation arises, I’m not able to stay firm with my decision. If I insist on doing what I suppose to do, guilt will enter my mind. Argh! I’m in a dilemma, surrounded with uncertainty. Even the slightest thing on earth will ‘touch’ my heart. Why? I really don’t know.

The same thing happened for more than twice already and each time, I will allow sympathy to override the barrel of feelings that is flowing in my blood. It will always be the battle between the angel and demon. My conscience told me that I’m not suppose to be soft-hearted so that history will not repeat itself. However, whenever I’ve made up mind, something will be there to distrupt my decision. Trust me, it’s really hard.

After all, I think I’m just ‘enjoying’ my ride on the merry-go-round, circling around with my foot remain static.

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Some pics taken on 16th May 2009 during lunch..

 

 

YJ eating his cheesecake..

WC eating his chic chop..

 

It comes in a really big portion..

 

Blabbings with something in reserve, bL!nk$t@R.

The value of friendship~ May 10, 2009

The seeds of friendship May 10, 2009

It’s 4.35 am now. Because of one song, it constantly reminds me to treat the people around me better than ever, especially my friends. It’s hard to live without friends although I enjoy peace and serenity very much. They  somehow revolves around you even when it comes to the tiny bits of life. We never know.

I am a believer of fate, but never believes in luck. Fate in the sense that how two people is able to meet among a sea of human beings. It’s really amazing., ain’t it? That’s why I always believe that there is a reason for God to send these wonderful people into my life. The moment they walk into my life, they were destined to add value and help me through life in one way or another. Sometimes when you look back, many stuffs are hard to explain. Plain fate, I guess so. There are times that we needed each other so much and there are also moments where we are being ditched. Trust me, it’s fine. It’s just a process of growing our friendship to a stronger and healthier one. It’s similar to sowing a seed. Witnessing it sprouting up day by day and later becoming a plant is such a satisfying experience. Friendship too needs water, air, food and sunshine. If not, very fast, we will see it wilting. When one day it has become a solid and strong tree, that is when we will appreciate the things that happened and smile.

To everyone I know out there, I really want you all to know that I appreciate each and every bond regardless of time. Thank you so much for being with me, laughing at my silly jokes and even responding to my nonsense requests. Regardless of anything, there is nothing I hope for except happiness for all of you. At least when I walk down to hell or fly up to heaven, I am sure what nostalgia I would like to bring with me.

A quote to share: “Never take a person for granted. Hold every person close to your heart because you might wake up one day and realise that you’ve lost a diamond while you were too busy collecting stones”.

A friend in need is a friend indeed, bL!nk$t@R.

Acceptance May 10, 2009

Gone through a number of things last week. We work so hard,  play with so much fun, laugh like hell, cry in pain.. After all, what does life boils down to? Are we born to die? I always question myself that. You see, if life is lived for the sake of living and things are done just to sustain life, yes, you are born to die. Ever ponder about your goals, aspirations and dreams? Ever thought of living a much more meaningful life than before? And do you ever thought that someone else out there who might want to have a life and yet is deprive of it? Too many questions to be answered. But, we can’t just ignore it and carry on with our life. We have to pursue life to seek the answer, the ultimate one. Pursuing life means we live life with a purpose instead of wandering around without any direction. It’s our compass, our guideline.

You know, the peeps around me made me realise how important acceptance is. Robin Sharma too (A wake-up call from him). Acceptance is not only about nodding your head. It’s about unlocking your heart to embrace the unknown. It’s about forgetting the past and welcoming the future. It’s about demonstrating your courage and continue to carry on with life in a stronger manner. Accepting is easy, but accepting something truly is a massive challenge. Courage is not enough, we need bravery too. We have to dare ourselves to take the first step out towards change. Hiding solves nothing but only add salt to the wound. Remember, acceptance is the passport to a better life.

 

‘Let life leads you, start accepting’, bL!nk$t@R.